just the way i am.

hola.... 3 nites cant sleep well, 1 nites suffer of stomach ace and 5 days my low blood pressure is haunting me. That required me to do routine check up all over again. Sick of it! Meet kak ngah last nite & talked to her about my low blood pressure and as she said may be its due to family genetic coz her,my self,abah n arwah abg izad also face the same probs. I must put down my weight. And kak ngah suggest to take mengkudu juice. I already told ifa to find mengkudu for me. Hahah. Back to insomnia issue... I just cant sleep and make me feel sleepy @ work. Esp in the afternoon. Waaaaaa whylah this happen to me.
Work getting tough lately. It make stress day by day esp when dealing with people who really dont understand about my work n team. As from my point of view, we try to improve the weakness but for this peoe, they keep condemn and never think further about it. Work as a team, cooperat with each other, helping each other, support and if they dont know, show n teach them. Today zulianty cried after quite sumtimes she never cried, of course i'm d one who mad at this peopl. Sabar ye zulianty. 5 days to go n u will release from this tress.
good thing for my dearie Ifa, soon she will have a new car. Alhamdulillah, at last after working so hard + her effort, she get a new saga fl. Sayang try to drive in auto yer, dont worry, i''ll wil teach u. Today we going sign the agreement and go to the kak umi place to settle down everything. we try to maintain the same pregistration number for her car.. Apa macam, ok tak?? Danny jangan jealous tau! And i know ifa paling happy rite now and i know she cant wait to cherrish the moment with me.. Hahaha perasan betul... sayang u.
I've new boy friend.. Just a boyfriend and i never expect to go further, unless if jodoh kenot do anything lah. His name is Jack but i called him pak cik coz he is pak cik tua.. Hahaha his age same with abeman. He kind of crazy hahahah but always buli me.. . He have a good sense of humour and always brighten up my day when its raining.he also a gud advisor too. Tak rugi ada kawan mcm dia. Jack nice knowing you. And i hope this friendship will remain. For ever.

beautiful world i share with you.

working... this week memang memerah otak @ office. Bag protection lah. invnetory lah.. bla..bla.. bla.. penat sgt.. tapi kan bear rent tu x paham2..

love is in the air.. hahahaha.. mak cik ikat rambut macam pokok kelapa sawet.. hahahha toncet mcm org dalam pantang... - lya news gf.. hahaha... video shoot dah cantik... scene lap-lap mulut.... add on script sendiri... hahah by the way her name is sue.. you.. congrats.

my granny passed away on 28th March 2011, followed by my lovely cousin, kak ngah ain on 09-04-2011

besides..stress @ work plus melayan orang-orang yang x paham bahasa @ kilang tuh dah biasa...

yang penting my Afie.. sabar ye.. petang ni sy balik...

bukan aku untuk menoleh ke belakang

new year aini...ainz...Nani... Its already march... And so many things happen till rasa malas nak update blog ni. I dont know la... better pendam je dalam hati. n let the wind take all the sadness away and jgn datang lagi. Starting this new year with the newcomer in our family. 1st is our abang long n followed by ahmad hamizan. Waahhh of course sgt syiok coz quite sometime jugaklah no budak kecik in PD. The most happiest of coz kak kinah n abg hazli... N the baby is so cute.... Gerammm n rs x adil, kak lin always kidnapped that babay masuk dlm bilik dia. Our abang long, we didnt manage to meet each other since kak long nikah with him @ london (quite sad story gak sbb dgr kaklong nikah) insya-allah nanti jumpa/juga yer. Danny.... Hurmm my unpredictable buddy.. Tak tahu nak ckp mcm mana... Awak ni mamak.. U must always alert.. And i know ulone n lonely.. And sedih sgt bila tahu u n amo ended mcm tuh jer. And the reason very mengarut kan?? And i dont want u to be lonely that y i never tell u bout afi coz i dont want u to feel alone. I'm still like before can spent time it u happily without any doubt. Macam live life to the fullest. Hahahaha... Macammana plan pengantin 4 kita??? Its word paling kelakar penah terkeluar from my mouth. Ridic!!. kamu be good girl yer....
Afi... A newcomer in my life. Menenangkan segala keresahan di hati, penghibur di kala sunyi, a shoulder to cry on and a heart to be love.... Seem evryything hanya untuk kamu..... . And syg u should know that i always sayang kamu, feel proud to have u n ur craziness. Hahahahaha.... Gila nyer u ni... Hahaha i admit i suka sakat u. N syiok biler tgk u marah2. Hahahahha..... Oooppss bukan mrh tp geram... Ur smile always bright my day. Tq for being here with me. And be aprt of my life... N my family too. .
working mode.... Bosan lah... Bosan lah..... But always think positive. And layan je apa yg dtg. Yang penting kena kuat semangat... Be tough mcm phh. Kuat kuat kuat.
That me now.... support from member, afi,best buddy n my beloved family. Untuk jadi kuat, pk positive itu sgt penting.... Always tanamkan dalam hati kata kata motivate diri, nyanyi lagu yang happy2... Fikir benda2 yang happy2. N jauhkan all the bad thought. Come on aini... Yakinkan diri kamu mesti boleh.....
Lagu bersenam dah mula so its time to pen off n focus on my morning meeting.

Layannnnnnnn zessssssss
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lara hati....

saya sendiri tak mampu menghalang kamu, jika itu membahagiakan kamu, pergilah, tapi adilkah untuk saya? Berkorban untuk kebahagiaan orang lain, itulah quote yang paling sesuai untuk sy. Terima kasih kamu meninggalkan luka yang amat dalam hati saya. saya akan jadi manusia yang sabar, dan apa yang terjadi saya terima dengan keetentuannya. Redha dengan apa yang terjadi. Terima kasih lagi sekali, kerana hinggap sebentar dalam hati saya n memebuatkan saya gembira walaupun dalam sebulan nie. Semoga allah dapat membalas dengan apa kebaikan dengan apa yang kamu lakukan.

lara hati.

tak dapat nak gambarkan perasaan saya sekarang nie.. Bercampur baur, sakit hati,kecewa,sedih, rs nak menangis. Mcm mcm lah perasaan ni. Dah tak tahu nak buat apa, nak buat macam mana.... Tak tahu macam mana nak cool down my self. Jiwa memberontak, tak bertenang. Apa salah saya? Saya jauh dari kamu,saya tak dapat menemani kamu di kala saya busy, saya tdur awal dan kamu bosan sebab tiada siapa meneman kamu. Bagaimana pula dgn saya, siapa yang akan menenmani saya di kala saya bosan, di kala sy busy siapa yang akakan memahami saya? Siapa yang akan menenenagkan saya bila saya tension?? Sungguh tidak adil... Tapi apa yang saya mampu saya buat? Saya tak berdayaa.

kisah melayan orang gila.

hidup 2 3 hari ni memang miserable skit tapi saya masih boleh tersenyum dan melayan kerenah mereka di office n orang gila. Orang gila yang cuba memporak peranda hubungan saya dengan dia, yang masih menyimpan dendam dengan dia dan saya menjadi mangsa keadaan itu. Dan saya masih lagi boleh tersenyum. Dan sabar dengan apa yang terjadi. Memang pada mulanya saya kalah pada hasutam syaitan, tapi bila saya sedar, semuanya sia sia dan x mendatangkan apa pa faedah pun.

22-12-2010

alhamdulillah, Allah panjangkan umur saya sampai hari ini. Dapat juga saya merasai pengakhiran tahun 2010, yang byk meninggalkan kisah suka duka. Tahun ni juga mengajar saya erti sebuah kehilangan. Dan mengajar saya erti ketabahan. Selain itu, saya sedar betapa pentingnya berdekatan dengan keluarga saya espicially mak n abah saya. Yang saya sayang sangat2. Tahun yang penuh suka dan duka. Yang mengunsafkan dan mematangkan saya. Doakan yang baik baik sahaja untuk hari yang mendatang. Aminn